sometimes I think I miss my youthful independence and the ability to openly avoid the reprocussions of my actions that I seem to have grown out of without really meaning to. Youthful abandon seems most fit for the young, as that as I get older I notice that I cannot motivate myself away from the responsibilities I once so determinedly avoided

as I get closer and closer to that magic 30 it seems that almost overnight this all changed, only a few years back I was still a kid with no concern but then one day I fell into a irreversible adulthood

These days my weekends are no longer filled with questions such as "what club do I attend, what person do I ask out" but instead "do I work a extra day in the office? do I pick up side work to pay that bill? Where are we taking the kids? ..  its strange. But somehow not as bad as I feared it would be